I am catching up with posting online my articles.
I start to have the temptations to waste my time on things which are outside of my plan. And under "normal circumstances" I would do it. What I mean by saying "normal circumstances" is that I used to do all in the past. Especially on the days like today.
So what is special about this day today ?
Well... Yesterday I worked a lot and today I had hangover like symptoms. I was very tired and I couldn't focus. Thus last night I have set the alarm for four hours ( this didn't work anyway like on other days and I slept for about 6 hours ) but because I was so later after the breakfast I went back to bed and I had some more sleep. Though at least I did one of my exercises in the morning and only later I went back to sleep. When I woke up I tried to work on the computer but still I couldn't get focused. So I opened the computer game and I played it a little bit. I knew that it would be much better to do something else to help my body to recover ( like breathing exercises ) but I continued to play. Though I had it clear and I was determined to not fall on this point and play for hours. I did it for about half an hour and then I stopped.
Quite often this was the point when I was falling on. I was tired and I should be doing something to help my body to recover from tiredness and the stress but instead I was making it even more tired by playing computer games or doing some other useless things on the computer. Anyway as I said this time I did not allow myself to fall and I stopped playing this game after about half an hour. I had a little bit of rest and I started to do work-related stuff.
Though later there came another temptation. I was feeling better but I was still weaker and more tired than normal. And so I had the thoughts in my mind about starting to play the game again. But I didn't do it. I knew that I have to do first my top priority tasks from my plan and playing the game would be waste of time.
Now it almost midnight. I am tired but at least I have managed to do most of my tasks from the list. And that is really cool for two reasons. Firstly I was able to stop my pattern of wasting time on the days when I am tired and weak. And this one has been with me for at least couple of years. And secondly I have successfully completed day four of my experiment and I am closer to completion of my tasks.
I am still failing big time with the reduction of sleep. But I know that eventually I will succeed with it as well.
To be continued