This is the continuation of the previous article:
PAINFUL CONSEQUENCES OF HAVING FUN - PART 1
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define drinking alcohol and/or taking drugs as fun; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that I am not taking in to consideration the entire experience related to drinking alcohol ( drinking with other people, laughing, joking, relaxation, mind altering, hangover, headache, etc. ) but I only focus on the positive/pleasant part of it.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to give my body foods and drinks which support it and are necessary to the optimum functioning of the body and instead I take substances, which alter my mind and give me the illusion of fun but at the same time they are harmful and damaging to the body.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the messages of my body telling me that it doesn't like alcohol and/or drugs and instead I continue taking them, getting used to them and calling it fun.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to smile and laugh when somebody told me about his/her experience of getting drunk and having "big" hangover; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that I am smiling, laughing and accepting abuse of the body as normal and funny.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse my body with alcohol and drugs and define it normal and funny.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that within the experience of telling others about my "heavy drinking and big hangover" and then expecting others to smile and laugh about it which is a gratification for me, I am looking for acceptance and approval that the abuse that I am committing against my body by taking alcohol and drugs is normal and acceptable.