I am catching up with posting online my articles.
I have done kinesiology muscle testing and the word which is connected with my stiff neck is "BELIEVE". Of course this is just a word and it could be related to anything and thus at first I had no idea with what I could associate this word. But then I started to ask myself more questions and look at my current situation in life and relatively easy I was able to identify the point which is related to the word "believe" which is apparently connected with my stiff neck.
This is very interesting and I am curious how it all will evolve and what is going to happen with my stiff neck. Thus let's have a look...
In my day job I am massage therapist. I have many years of experience with it and I have learned and discovered few professional tricks on how to deal with the pains and aches in the body which make me much more efficient than many other therapists.
And this is all fine that I am efficient with dealing with the pains of my patients but here is a certain problem that I am creating within my mind a self-definition which results from comparing myself to others.
And what about if I would compare myself to other therapists who have even more experience and are even more efficient than I am ? Would it mean that I am bad therapist ?
Thus now it is clear for me that here I am dealing with the point of self-comparison to others and then based on the results of this comparison I am making definition of myself as a good therapist. But in the end this is not the real me because it all depends on who is in my environment and to whom I compare myself.
Anyway this is a certain belief which I "believe" that is real and even further I want to make even surer that this is ultimate true. Thus I have noticed that in the last 2 weeks I was telling other people that I am good therapist. It is not that I was on the street telling everybody that I am good therapist but I remember that I have said it directly to couple of people which is not the normal thing to do for me. Anyway it all starts to make sense now because I wanted to strengthen my belief about myself that I am good therapist.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to other therapists and based on this comparison I have created a self-definition within my mind that I am good therapist; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that I am creating within my mind an illusion about myself and who I am and then I believe that this is real me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am good therapist and to try to make this belief real I have tried to convince other people that I am good therapist by telling it them directly; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that trying to make a belief real is not going to make it real because in the end it is an illusion created within my mind.