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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have more exciting life; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that the desire for more excitement is an addiction to the emotional rush within my body which gives me a sensation of something valuable and worth living for.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that the feeling of excitement is a chemical reaction within my body which is activated by the emotions and to get the constant excitement I need to generate ever more and ever stronger emotions or otherwise the feeling of excitement wears off and disappears; and thus I forgive myself that in the search for more and stronger emotions I have allowed myself to take risks which are dangerous for myself and others; I also forgive myself that through my desire to have more excitement I have allowed the abuse of others because of my need to have more money so that I may pay for my experiences which generate more emotions and chemical reactions within my body.
I forgive myself that have not allowed myself to realise that I have become possessed by my desire for more excitement and within this obsession I allow myself to be blind to the fact that I allow the abuse because when I accumulate excess of money to pay for experiences which generate more excitement I let others to struggle for survival because of the lack of money and thus I am directly connected and responsible for the suffering of others.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that the excitement can last only as long as there is an activator which generates the emotions which further activate the chemical reaction within the body which gives me the sensation of something exciting; I also forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that this feeling/chemical reaction can last only as long as the body is capable of producing and releasing the chemicals and thus because there is a physical limit to the number of chemicals which the body can release thus the feeling of excitement wears off and disappears as soon as the body cannot produce more chemicals; and thus to get more excitement I must provide more stimulus of new and stronger emotions which can activate the realise of the chemicals; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that searching for more and stronger emotions is an abuse against my body because I try to force it to produce more chemicals over the limit.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that searching for new and more and stronger emotions to generate the feeling of excitement is an abuse against my body because of forcing it to produce more chemicals as well as an abuse of others because I allow myself to get involved into the situations when I justify the abuse of others ( e.g. accumulation of excess of money while others struggle to survive because of lack of money) for the sake of me being able to get more emotions.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that the feeling of the excitement forces the body to produce more chemicals and thus forcing the body to produce continuously this excess of chemicals which gives me the sensation of excitement carries the consequences of being tired faster and easier and over longer period of time it produces the sickness and accelerates death and thus I am directly responsible for my tiredness, sickness and death.