I didn't have access to internet yesterday thus I am posting my article today.

I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed myself to believe that giving is more valuable then receiving; within this one I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that giving is not possible without receiving and thus it is not possible that giving is more important and valuable then receiving.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the importance of receiving; within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself a good person and to proof to myself that I am good person I have pressed myself to give continuously more and more while ignoring receiving; I also forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that through continuous pushing myself to give while ignoring the receiving I am creating imbalance and I am subject to the consequences of that imbalance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge Melanie that she didn't want to give me without realizing that she is just a mirror reflection of what is going on inside of me; and because I have programmed myself to give while ignoring receiving thus she was reflecting it all to me in the form of taking from me but not giving to me;

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others that they don't have anything to give me and thus instead I was continuously giving to them; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that this is again reflection of the ideas which I have created within my mind about giving more value to giving over receiving.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel hurt because people don't give me enough money for my effort at work; within this one I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that this is just another mirror reflection of what I have accepted and allowed within myself about the giving and receiving and giving more value to giving over receiving.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that through assigning more value to giving over receiving I am creating inequality and the construct of polarities where the giving is positive and receiving is less positive ( negative ); within this one I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am entrapping myself within this construct and through constant giving and not receiving because I have assigned more value to giving I am exhausting myself and my body.

To be continued...