This is the continuation of the previous article:

MOUNTAIN OF PROBLEMS WITHIN THE RELATIONSHIP - PART 1
MOUNTAIN OF PROBLEMS WITHIN THE RELATIONSHIP - PART 2
MOUNTAIN OF PROBLEMS WITHIN THE RELATIONSHIP - PART 3
MOUNTAIN OF PROBLEMS WITHIN THE RELATIONSHIP - PART 4
MOUNTAIN OF PROBLEMS WITHIN THE RELATIONSHIP - PART 5
MOUNTAIN OF PROBLEMS WITHIN THE RELATIONSHIP - PART 6

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my partner for the problems in our relationship and at the same time I have defined myself as being innocent; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the problems which I am facing in my relationship is a creation of both partners and within blaming my partner for problems and defining myself as innocent I am hiding behind this definition of being innocent because I don't want to see the truth and the real cause of the problems which lies also within me.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that being guilty and innocent is just another pair of polarities and one polarity cannot exist without its opposite; thus by defining myself as innocent with positive charge within it I am automatically creating an opposite polarity of somebody else being guilty with negative charge within it which reflects itself in my relationship with my partner; thus I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that defining myself as innocent is an illusion created within my mind because in reality I am responsible for creating polarities and I simply agree to play a role of a positive person while my partner plays the role of being negative and seemingly solely responsible for the problems.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider breaking up with my partner instead of looking at what can be practically done to solve all the problems existent within our relationship; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that considering break up and actual break up is a form of running away from investigating of what I have created for myself within this relationship and the whole situation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel overwhelmed by the mountain of problems within my relationship and through this I allow myself to give up and do nothing to solve the problems; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that mountain of problems is a combination of unresolved problems and issues which have accumulated over time and within the feeling overwhelmed I give up without even looking and analyzing what can be practically done to solve it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect to solve the mountain of problems within my relationship quickly and when I realize that I cannot not do it in an instant then I become frustrated and I give up because I believe that I am not able to solve it at all; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that mountain of problems within my relationship has been created by me over period of time and thus under normal circumstances it is a lengthy process which requires patience, dedication and self motivation before all of the problems are going to be solved by me; thus my frustration and giving up is just another form of running away from facing myself and all that I have created within it.

To be continued...