I am facing the point of total demotivation towards doing things. I could do a lot of projects but somehow I do not see the need for it. But again this is all about myself. I am facing resistance towards the change and thus I struggle with discipline and I waste time on silly things. I notice that I make step forward but then I go back and so on. And how I am inside is what the people around mirror it to me. And this is this point when I am disappointed with people that they do not want to change. But in the end it is all about me.
Today I had a day off. I took also a break from exercises. The gym was closed in the afternoon and so I allowed myself to give a break to my muscles. Tomorrow I will not go to the gym either but I will do some exercises at home.
What else ?
I did not go meditation today. I tried in the morning but I was falling asleep and I could not finish it. And later I needed to go out. This is just another example with the lack of discipline. I have been writing about it already since few weeks. And so far I am not effective with changing this point. Though I need to say that I am learning a lot from my failures because later I always reflect back and analyse how I get myself to the point of failure. Eventually I will transform this point.