Today I thought a lot about the situation with this woman who I thought could be part of the team in my project. If this is true all that she told me about what she did in her life I am almost certain that she could teach me and show a lot of interesting things related to healing therapies. But then right now she is in a point in her life where she is unbalanced and not stable. Her body is weak. She was sick for couple of weeks ( this is what she told me ) and she could hardly walk. And then her body had an unpleasant odour. She showed me that she is fearful and did not trust me. In the conversations she was mean and she wanted to proof that she is much better than me and I am on a very low level. And there were few other things that I remembered and analysed today. Thus taking into consideration all of the points it is clear to me that this is not the right moment for this person to be my teacher. Although I have to say that despite the friction and conflict I picked up some interesting ideas which I need to test.
Another point that came through this situation is that I need to stay focused and only work with people who prove with practical living that they are worthy to work together. In the case of this woman I should have asked her to heal herself first before she could heal others. And this point with healing others was her strong point according to what she told me.
What else ?
Because I had appointments late in the evening so I decided to go to the gym during the day. During the training I felt hungry and I started to have the dryness in my eyes. This showed me that I start to have some deficiencies in my body. But I did not want to eat straight away. I thought that maybe it would go away so I waited about 2 hours. But it did not help. And I started to feel that my body starts to eat my muscles. Apart from this my body weight was less about 1 kg. Thus I decided to eat something in the afternoon especially because of these late appointments. And this food helped me to do the treatments. Otherwise I would really struggle with it. And afterwards I had my dinner.
Because of the toxicity in my body that showed up this week I was monitoring closely my body with my medical instrument. I did frequently the tests. And it looks like my body is coming back to the normal state. In the afternoon after the meal the values and the lines on the diagram started to look normal. If it stays like this for another 2 days then I will introduce 1 protein supplement and see if it is clean. If not then I will clean my body again and test the 2nd supplement. If this one is also toxic then I will try to find something else. But it is clear to me ( through the symptoms of dryness in my eyes ) that in my current diet there is lack of some nutrients and I need to find a way to provide it for my body either through different type of foods or through supplements.
Tomorrow I have a very busy day. This is going to be the busiest day in my whole carrier as a massage therapist. I did not want it but there was no other way to arrange my appointments differently. Thus I will eat 2 or maybe even 3 times tomorrow. And the day after I will take no appointments at all as I will need to recover first.