I am catching up with posting online my articles.
Today I have been working all day on the project. Today I got the materials and I needed to paint the wood with the protective paint. And I had to do everything today just in case if there would be a rain at night. I thought it would go father easy but in the end it was a big job. I had enough of it in the afternoon but I could not stop for the reason that mentioned earlier. One thing that I am very pleased about was that while I was doing my job outside on the terrace my computer and the 3D printer was doing another job inside for me.
But then doing this rather difficult job with painting ( difficult because I had to finish it all in one go today ) I was asking myself again the question about the sense in doing all of these work. Of course asking myself this question I try to answer it and this process of looking for answer gets me into realising certain quite important things.
Thus I could be doing a normal 9-5 job. Then I would not have to do this difficult painting but then I know that I would not be happy about this normal job. While here I am my own boss and I do my own projects etc.
I could be doing normal things like the normal people do. But then I decided that I want to do other things. And so I am doing all of these unnormal things. There are certain unpleasant parts involved with it ( painting ) but in the end I do something that I wanted to do and motivates me and excites me etc.
The only thing is that I do them and I do not know where it will take me all. I invest my money, time and other resource into something without any guarantee that it will last. For example I rent an apartment and if the owner decides to sell it then I will have to go. But then I realised that I need to live day by day and I should do my project right here and right now because I have possibility to do it. Maybe later I will not have an apartment big enough to do this project. So I do the best I can now. I finish it because this was my decision and I will see the results of it ( or not ). I will never know where it all takes me if I do not do it.
So these are my thoughts and realisations while doing this project. Deep inside of me I know that this will take me to a point where I would be happy that I did it. It is just the limited mind that does not want to look beyond the surface.