I was hoping to have an easy day today and enjoy my freedom. Yesterday I finished with posting online all of my JTL articles, which was something incredible because with this my list with pending tasks is empty. Anyway I was busy almost all day today. But it looks like I may have an easy day tomorrow and I will try to go to the beach and have some nice time.
Today for the 3rd time I faced the point of not knowing what to do with myself. I felt again that there are some changes happening inside of me and somehow there is this discomfort of the birth. Before the new will come the old has to fell apart. I also say that the old energies must fall apart, dissipate and return to the source. And this transformation causes some kind of discomfort which manifests itself in the form of wanting to waste some time playing computer games or masturbate. Anyway I just have to walk through it and it will disappear with time. If I act on it then I will only make the whole process longer for myself. Thus I breathe and I hold on.
Apart from this I do not see I could write anything else in this moment. So I guess I will finish it here and I start doing my exercises.