I am catching up with posting online my articles.
This was an interesting day. I have started to make some changes within myself where the energy was falling part from certain creations in my life and when this energy was freeing itself, I did not know what to do with myself. Literally I wanted to reverse the change and do something to go to the old. It felt as if I was out of control and I wanted to go back to the old.
You'll know... the wisest thing to do would be to continue with the change and push forward but I gave into the desire of holding on to the old. I was aware of it but at the same time it was like going through the hell. I know that this uncomfortable feeling is still there and I still have the resistance. But I will not fall for it. I will just go forward no matter what holding my focus. We'll see where it gets me.
Thus now I will finish with this article and I will do my mental exercises. In the end this is the main cause of the changes and the side effect in the form of not knowing what to do with myself.