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It has been long time since I received the fine from the police last time. But today it happened. And it is interesting how came up.
When it has happened the situation I immediately saw that I was unaware. I mean there was a series of events that happened before hand which led me to this point which I noticed but I did not react to it and did not stop it.
Am I annoyed by it ?
The fine is relatively high for not wearing a seat belt in the car so maybe I could say that I am annoyed. But at the same time I realised quickly that this was a pre-programed situation and once it started to roll then I had to go through this situation and be the marionette in it. And so I took the fine relatively easy and in a relaxed way. Simply because I knew that this was a program.
But I can ask myself the question of why did it happen in the first place ?
How come that I have allowed this program to play out in my live ?
Well... today is a full moon and I could say that this has something to do with it. But then this means that I give away my responsibility and my power to external forces. And I do not like it. Thus I stop blaming the moon for my life and I take the responsibility for it.
But still there remain the question of why I have allowed it to happen ?
I do not see the answer yet so I do the self-forgiveness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be unaware and play out the role in the program in which I have been fined by the policeman.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow the program to direct me into the situation when I am fined by the policeman.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power to the program which led me to the situation when I am fined by the policeman.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be unaware that I participate in the playout of the program.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see the moment when I have started to be directed by the program.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power to the program and later I allowed myself to be led to the situation when I pay fine.