I am catching up with posting online my articles.
My day was kind of ok but later in the evening I got suddenly very tired. It was that I came home and I sat on the sofa and I was really struggling to keep my eyes open. And so I lied down a little bit on the sofa. But I was a ware of the point that I may fall asleep and so I lied down in a really uncomfortable position because I knew that still I have to write my JTL article.
Now I am trying to write something but I continue to struggle to keep awake and stay concentrated. So basically I write just to write.
But still instead of "falling down" I force myself to ask myself a question: "Why is this happening ?"
It may seem that there is no reason for it but then through my knowing and experience I know that there is something triggering and provoking this point.
Thus I look at my day and I try to see any possibilities. And I remember that there was a friction with my good friend who left my home with sour face and mind. Maybe he continues to send me some negative thoughts and energies ?! I do not want to judge and/or blame anybody. I do not have any proof that this is my friend. And even if it was then why am I allowing it ? Why would I give my power away ?
Anyway... I am only trying to look around and investigate the possibilities instead of falling blindly into the trap of being a victim of tiredness. And so this is already a big step.
And now I take my power into my hands and I push myself to smile. I breathe deeper. I give myself an encouragement/order saying that I want to know the cause of this tiredness. I breathe. Now I allow myself to go to bed knowing that sooner or later I will know that cause of this situation. And it does not matter if that is my friend or me or other person. I will know it.