I am catching up with posting online my articles.
I was supposed to meet my friends today. Their visit has been planned here for weeks and quite often they were telling me how much they want to be here and meet with me. And so I was on my way to their hotel and I got the message that they are not there. They told me that they went to eat in the restaurant but because they are very tired so they will not meet with me today.
You'll know... for me that was ok as I know that they work a lot and I was not making a big deal about it. But this was not what my partner saw. She told me that she saw and felt some movement on the mind level. At first I ignored her but then after listening to her ( although I did not feel like ) I realised that she is right. She pointed out to me that she noticed anger in me ( because I wanted to meet my friends but they were not there ) but I quickly suppressed it thinking that it is not there.
And so we continued to talk more about the supressed and hidden expressions of self. And it is true that we have these hidden expressions of ourselves but we supress them because we may judge them as something bad for example. In my case I judged the anger as something bad ( although I had already a situation in my life in the last couple of weeks when I saw that my anger was an innocent expression of self ) and so I decided to hide. Fortunately my partner was aware of this point and she brought it up to the open discussion and she made me aware of this point.
It was not easy for me to understand it at first but then I had to admit that my partner was absolutely right.