I am catching up with posting online my articles.
I don't want to work so much but in the end I start early in the morning and I finish late at night. Now it is almost 2 am and I do my article although at some point in the past I wanted to avoid this type of situations.
Today I have been asking myself about the purpose of it all that I do. For example: I do really enjoy leaving in a big house but then it takes a lot of my time and energy to be able to maintain it. The things go easier and better but still I need to put a lot of effort into it and this makes me to question all of it. But then on the opposite side... I know that I do a really good job with my therapies and my goal to have a therapy and education center where I could teach and treat other people is meaningful. And I see that I get a lot of support in making it real and thus I just need to keep moving and walking forward despite the fact that sometimes I do not feel like doing it.
Anyway these are small moments of doubts. And I will not give anymore my attention and energy to it. I have made my choices. And I have decided to create a therapy and education ( courses ) center. And thus I will do everything possible that this child of mine grows big, strong and healthy. I realise that sometimes I need to wake up at night ( although "I do not feel like" ) and attend my child who is crying and comfort it. This "I do not feel like" is part of it. But it does not matter. This is just a short moment which will pass away and later I will forget about it.