I am catching up with posting online my articles.
I have a history of attracting into my life people with whom I would like to have a relationship but yet these people are already in the relationship or unfinished relationship. It happened to me on couple of occasions in always it ended in regret, sorrow and disappointment. It was simply because I was making myself hopes and believes in my mind that this is this special person on whom I was waiting all my life.
But this was never the case. My relationships always ended up that my "soulmate" was never decided and committed to be with me 100% and she was thinking about getting back with her ex-partner. In those situations on previous occasions I was waiting "patiently" hoping and believing that she needs some time to get over her ex. But as I said this was never happening I was ending up being hurt.
And so I have met somebody lately who seemed to be interesting to me. But I did not act. I only observed all that was happening. But because I saw that there is more and more energy which was trying to pull us together I decided to talk openly about the situation and bring the clarity.
And guess what ?
I have discovered and realised that this is my old pattern at play again. And if I decided to act and try to get involved into the relationship with this woman I would end up like it did in the past - regret, sorrow and disappointment.
Now I am a little pissed off with myself that I have let myself to think ( not a lot but still I did ) that I could have a relationship with this person. But also I have say that I am really glad and proud of myself that did not fall for it. I am glad that I have decided to breathe and bring up the clarity through open conversation.
You'll know... this thing with breathing and talking directly and openly ( instead making idealistic stories about other persons in the mind and then act upon these phantasies ) we practice during the DIP course. And now I am really glad that I do this course although it is very difficult.