I am catching up with posting online my articles.
So I have been working quite a lot in the last 3 weeks and although I have tried my best to not commit the same mistakes as last year I could not avoid the point of getting very tired. Today I worked not much and I got home relatively early. So I ate something and I sat in front of the computer. But after about 1 hour I noticed that I am just wasting time doing silly things.
You'll know... I could justify it that I am tired and I do not feel like doing anything requiring me to think. And maybe I would go away with it if I did not know this feeling from before.
What is happing here is the typical behaviour of literally pulling myself of the path in to the bushes. Walking on the path would require me to stay focused and make decisions which would be align with my projects on which I am working right now. And that would simply mean to get off the computer, have a rest, make the plan of what I could do today and follow it.
Walking off the path into the bushes will be more difficult for me in the long run. This is obvious... isn't it ? Ok... I want to relax now and have a little be easy time ( this is just an excuse of my mind ) if I go too far of the main path and if I get lost then I will have to work hard to get through the bushes which are the consequences. So it would be much more beneficial for me to stop the pattern of walking into the bushes and get effective rest.
Anyway I have noticed this thing with seating senselessly in front of the computer doing silly things. And this really cool. But noticing something serves no good if I do not do anything about it. And here was the challenge for me because I knew that should be doing something else but then I was tired and I did not feel like working on my projects. Thus I was looking around thinking about what I could do but I did not know where to start. So I was kind of stuck. But then I remembered this feeling from last year and I knew that I did not want to be there again. So eventually I got myself of the chair and I started to clean my house which got a little bit messy last week when I was busy with work.
Now... I am still tired and I did very little but at least it is just 10.30 at night and I can relax now. In the past I used to seat senselessly in front of the computer until after midnight and only then I was trying to write my article. But this time is different. I learned the hard way and now I do not want to make the same mistakes as I know that it would lead me into the bushes and later I would have to deal with the consequences of getting back on path.