I am catching up with posting online my articles.
My last couple of weeks have been very intense at work. Today finally I have my day off but I reached the point of tiredness when I do not want to even think about what to write. So I guess I will take a little bit the easy way and I just write about not knowing what to write.
Unfortunately the reason why I am so tired is because I need to focus on stabilizing myself financially in the system. I have already reached a certain level when I could have kind of comfortable life but I want to do more in this system and so I need to get more money. I have lots of ideas, which I would like to make real but I need to build a structure which requires more money and also requires involvement of other people in this project.
And so this is my focus in the last couple of months. It is not easy and I have some moments of doubts. As I said I could have already relatively comfortable life and here I am still struggling with trying to build a bigger network and organization. And what about if it does not work ? I dedicate a lot of energy and effort and also I have invested money into it and if it does not work then I will be hit quite hard.
I could have dedicated more time towards my activist activity on internet but then I think that it will be more effective if I build a structure and network here where I live so that I could work directly with the people. And so here I am doing it. I take a risk because I know that once it works I will be able to do much more in the system. I will be able to sponsor other people and other projects, which follow the principle of what is best for all.
Well... I guess the birth of a new babe is not always so easy and it requires some patience and effort. So I guess this is also my case.