I am catching up with posting online my articles.
So I have committed the mistake of the beginner. I wanted to do as much as possible and as quick as possible and now I am paying price for it. My body could not take this fast pace anymore and it got sick. And as a result of it now I am going forward very, very slowly - almost being stagnant.
Thus at some point I made few quick and big steps forward but because I am like a turtle now then my whole average "speed" is slower rather then if I was holding myself steady all the time and going at the steady pace.
And although I do not regard myself as beginner I have made the mistake of the beginner and now I am paying price for it.
So what is the price that I am paying for my mistake ?
Well... I was writing lately in my articles that I got sick and weak and I had to slow myself completely down. I wrote that I am recovering fast from it but then I did not take in to account that my healing goes in waves and thus I have days when I am worse than the day before when I have to take it really easy.
Now... although the consequences of my mistake are not pleasant at all and I wish that it all ended up already, I start to see that this sickness is helping me to get more clarity in my process and it opens new important door for me. Now I have to walk through it. I will write about it in my next article.
For now it looks like we should learn to "love our enemies" as they carry for us incredibly precious gifts.