I am catching up with posting online my articles.
I already don't remember when was the exact point when I decided to not watch porn and also to not use it to get myself excited sexually while watching it and then to masturbate but it must be already over 3 years. The period of over 3 years is the moment of making the decision because in the beginning phase I allowed myself to fall for it from time to time.
Anyway... it has been already at least 1 year when I did not masturbate while watching porn and here I would like to share about my experience.
1. First of all I am very glad that I did stop watching porn and masturbate while watching it. I do not need it.
2. In the beginning phases the temptation do break my commitment and watch the porn "just a little bit" - which was just an excuse of my mind to fall for it - was much stronger and more frequent. Now it is still there somewhere at the back of my mind and I could fall for it again if I allow but at the same time I see and realise that I do not need it and that it is something really stupid and crazy to do.
3. I realise more and more that this whole thing with the porn industry is nothing else but abuse and all of us who participate in it are directly responsible for all the suffering and abuse in this world, which is extensive. And it doesn't matter what kind of excuse I find for myself. If the porn actors are being abused and forced to do it, if they do it for money because of their difficult situation etc. then I am responsible for this abuse.
To be continued...