This is the continuation of the previous article:

I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH - MY FATHER - PART 1
I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH - MY FATHER - PART 2
I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH - MY FATHER - PART 3

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not good enough; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that though accepting this belief as true within my mind I am giving my power to it and I create my whole life around this belief and thus the people and situations in my life will reflect exactly that which I believe and power into manifestation through and as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get pissed off with my father for giving me as an example other people who according to him were better people; within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to other people and desire to be better then them; I also forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that within the desire to be better then other people I wanted to deny the belief which I have accepted within my mind that "I am not good enough".

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that trying to find the proof on the outside that I am not "not good enough" through:
- comparing myself to others and trying to find a proof that I am better then them;
- comparing myself to my father and trying to get more material possessions then him;
- finding mistakes within my father and through this believe that I am better then him;
- treating my father as if he was inferior to me;
- expecting from myself to do more then others so that I can prove to my father that I am better then those to whom he compares me and gives me as an example to follow;
- expecting from myself to know more then others so that I can prove to my father that I am better then those to whom he compares me and gives me as an example to follow;
is not effective at all because I am treating the symptoms and results of the belief which I have accepted within my mind about myself and which I am powering into manifestation within my life as myself; and thus I forgive myself that I haven not allowed myself to realize that I am the cause and the creator of these experiences and as long as I don't stop creating them through powering into manifestation the belief that "I am not good enough", I will continue to manifest them within in my life and any kind of correction intended to change this situations directly "out there" instead of "within myself", will never be effective because I only treat the symptoms and not the cause of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to earn more money then my father; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that through earning more money I wanted to find a proof that I am better then him and through this I wanted to find a proof that I am not "not good enough" which is the belief which I have accepted and formed about myself within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for mistakes within my father; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am trying to find a proof that my father is inferior to me and I am better then he thinks of me; I also forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that within the desire to prove that I am superior then my father I wanted to find a proof that I am not "not good enough" which is the belief that I have formed about myself within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get pissed off with my father - who was giving me as an example other people which I should follow - instead of investigating for myself all these experiences and realizing I am a creator of it through accepting a belief about myself within my mind that I am not good enough.

When and as I see myself trying to find a proof that I am better then my father I stop and I breathe; I realize that I am comparing myself to my father and through this I am trying to find a proof that I am not "not good enough" which is a belief that I have formed about myself within my mind.

To be continued...