This is the continuation of the previous article:

MILITARY ANTIDEPRESSANT NASAL SPRAY - PART 1
MILITARY ANTIDEPRESSANT NASAL SPRAY - PART 2
MILITARY ANTIDEPRESSANT NASAL SPRAY - PART 3
MILITARY ANTIDEPRESSANT NASAL SPRAY - PART 4

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that whenever there is a war in the world there is always somebody trying to gain with force something to fulfill his/hers personal goals and desires; thus I realize that if I follow the principle of what is best for all in every moment of breath then there will be no wars in my life and if everybody else does the same as me, then there will be no wars in the world.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the feeing of guilt and depression that I feel as a soldier is not only related to shock of what I see and do during the war ( e.g. killing others and seeing dead bodies ) but it is also related to the fact that I have given my power away to other beings who decide what I should do and at the same time I allow myself to believe that I cannot not change it and I feel that I am powerless and helpless.

I commit myself to not take medications or any other substance to suppress the depression or any feeling o guilt for what I am doing and instead I realize that all that is happening in my life is happening as either a result of my direct creation or as a my passive allowance so that others direct my life; and once I realize it I face it and make all necessary corrections so that all my creations follow the principle of what is best for all.

I commit myself to not commit suicide because I want to run away from facing the consequences of all my creations and allowances; I realize that through suicide I don't change anything and as matter of fact I leave all of the consequences of my creations for others to deal with; thus I stop myself from committing suicide and instead I stop all of my creations and stop participating as a slave in the creations of others which don't follow the principle of what is best for all.

I commit myself to not take nasal spray or any other medication to suppress the depression and feeling of guilt which I feel as a soldier in the army and instead I face all of my problems which cause those feelings until it is all done because I realize that if I stop my participation in the war ( in the physical world as well as in the mind ) then I will stop the causes of my depression and guilt and thus I realize that I am not as helpless as I think or believe I am.

I commit myself to expose the nonsense behind applying the nasal spray to create calm and euphory in soldiers because I realize that this is just another form to treat the symptoms instead of dealing with the root of the cause and thus it is ineffective and it will only create a time loop with even more accumulated consequences.

I commit myself to stop to follow the principle of what is best for all in every moment of breath because I realize that this will stop all of the wars in my life and thus it will stop any possible consequences ( feeling of guilt, depression, suicide ) which are the result of it.

I commit myself to not give my power to decide about my life to any other being ( e.g. general, president etc. ) and I commit myself to direct my life in every moment of breath as me in a way which is best for all.

I commit myself to not obey the orders of any general, president or any persons who BELIEVE that they have power over me or that they have right to give me orders unless the order serves and follows the principle of what is best for all.