Yesterday I went with my friends to a bar. Once we entered inside we were invited by 2 ladies to join their table. Because there were no other free tables we have accepted their invitations. We ordered the drinks and we started to talk. Actually they have started to talk with the 2 women because myself I didn't feel comfortable being there at all. If I was alone I would leave the place immediately but I was with my friends thus I have decided to stay there. After about 40 min we have finally left and it was mainly because I have started to indicate that I want to go.

After we left the local the 3 of us started to talk and it was interesting to see that each of us didn't like the local at all but each of us stayed there because we thought that the others 2 enjoyed it or at least the conversation with the 2 women was important because they have talked about business.

I would be just enough to communicate clearly that I don't want be there and ask others the same instead of making illusions in my mind that others enjoy being there. I say illusions because afterwards everybody said that they didn't want to be there.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to communicate clearly with my friends that I don't want to be in the bar.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that my resistance of communicating to others that I don't want to be in the bar is showing me that I don't respect myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not worthy to express my opinion that I don't want to be in the bar.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to respect myself by communicating clearly that I don't want to be in the bar.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that it is impossible to respect others while disrespecting myself.