Love is probably the word that has been most abused by humans but even though the amount of harm and suffering caused by abuse of this word is unbelievable, still not everybody can see it. And it has happened not only in the past but it is also happening today.

Now... if you don't see how this word is being abused and used to take advantage of others than most probably you are the abuser yourself. This is exactly the same as people who went to the wars ( e.g. Crusades, holy inquisition etc ) and killed others in the name of god and his infinite love. It is so obvious that killing others is immoral but yet those people killing in the name of god don't see it this way. They see it as good deed. And it is the same with the word love. You use it and abuse it but you don't see it or if you see it, you suppress it and continue the abuse.

The above example points out the abuse of love done by religious people but we may also not forget the abuse of this word on the global scale when it comes to the relationships. Men abuse this word to get sex and women abuse this word to get money and both use the word love to get what they want.

Now... this is my personal experience showing how men abuse word love to get sex. This happened to me more than 10 years ago. It was the "era" when MSN messenger was the best program to chat online. I remembered that this was for me the beginning - I was just learning how to use it. Thus I was online and somebody who I didn't know, contacted me. He said hello, he asked me how I am, where I live etc. After short while he started to ask me some question about how tall I am and much I weight. I was naive and I have answered all this questions. But after he said that I am hot when I have told him about my height and the weight I have realized that he thinks that I am a woman. Well... I understand that he might have got confused because I didn't have any picture on my profile and my pseudonym could have indicated that I might be a female but I couldn't understand - at least at that time - why would somebody try to pick me up without knowing anything about me apart from my weight, my height and my pseudonym. Anyway once I have realized his intentions I have let him know that I want to finish our chat. He tried to stop me and keep me talking with him but I said that I have to go. And then I got the last message through which I finally understood all of his intentions - he was desperate for sex. He said: "wait... I love you". WTF... as I said before, this guy didn't know anything about me and yet he has "fallen in love" with me. And this "poor" guy didn't even know that I am a man.

And this is just one of multitude of examples of how people abuse the word "love".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the word love to get my own personal goals and desires to be fulfilled.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the word love to manipulate others to get sex and money.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that every time I use the word love to get what I want and desire I have actually change the word use into ab-use of love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the word love to control and manipulate others to get what I want and desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to kill others in the name of God and his infinite love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is okay to kill others because they don't believe in the same god as I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be manipulated by others using the word love because I was desperate to be loved by somebody and at the first opportunity when somebody used the word love I had become completely blinded and allowed myself to be directed by my desperate desire to be loved.