I remember once I was watching a movie on TV. There was a young woman standing on the edge of the cliff. She is completely depressed because her boyfriend broke up with her and her whole life is a misery. And that is why she is there because she wants to kill herself. Eventually she jumps. The whole moment of her falling down the cliff is shown in slow motion and at the same time there was a voice of a narrator representing the thoughts running through the mind of this girl. About half way the girl started to realize that all the problems that seemed to be unsolvable and lead her to make decision about committing suicide were actually not as big and not as significant as she thought before. And she starts to see clearly how she could have solved the problems with ease. But unfortunately now it is too late because she is falling down.
Now... this is just a movie but I am certain that there are many, many people who realise - just like this girl - in the last moments ( just before their body dies off and their spirit separates itself from the body and goes into another non-physical dimension ) that their problems were not as big and they could have been solved. But again it is too late to solve them. Because once we leave our body, we have no more access to this physical reality and we can no more solve the problems.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a system which takes people to the point of consideration to commit suicide.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the system in which people commit suicide because they don't want to struggle and fight to survive.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a system which doesn't support life and people.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a system which doesn't assist people in solving their problems and as a consequence of it people make a decision about committing suicide.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a system in which people believe that they cannot solve their problems themselves and as a consequence of it people kill themselves.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a system in which people are continuously bound in the fight for the survival and as a consequence of it they have no time to assist other beings who need help.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a system which lacks resources that should be used to help and assist those who struggle and have problems to survive.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a system in which people run away from the problems by committing suicide instead of facing and solving the problems.
To be continued...