What is this blog about ? What is this process of 7 years of my journey to life through writing daily blogs?
Well... We as human beings are living in the mind. The best example would be this one. You drive your car back home from work and once you get there you ask yourself the question: "How the hell did I get home ? I don't even remember this". You don't remember because you have been in the mind, thinking intensely about your worries, fears etc. In one single day we have many thousands of thoughts within our mind. Some of them we are aware of and many of them we are not, because they are circulating in our subconscious mind. We have many thoughts in our minds circulating there continuously throughout the day and even at night and we believe that this is normal. There is a famous saying from Rene Descartes: "I think, therefore I am" which reflects exactly what I am talking about here. But why do we believe that thinking is normal ? Why do we believe that we cannot stop thinking ?
The reason for it is that for an average person ( or even far above average person ) it is extremely difficult to stop the thoughts. And I am not talking here about stopping the thoughts completely (although this is the ultimate goal ). I am talking about stopping the thoughts for even just 1 or 2 min. We are not able to do it so easy. And because it is not so easy then we think that thinking must be normal. But this is the trap. The thoughts are like a train that accelerates and gains the momentum and after some time we are being driven and taken to places where we don't want to be but we are not able to get out of it because it's already going too fast. The thoughts of worry, of fear are making us tired and driving us crazy to the point that sometimes we want to do something stupid and jump out of the train even though we know that this is going kill us. We are ready to do it because all is unbearable anymore, we are being pushed to the limits and we don't have any more hope and know if the train is going to stop at all. We believe that we cannot do anything else, because we think that we are out of control and because we think that we are completely helpless.
But this is not true. There is always a solution but you just don't see it or you don't believe that the solution is going to work because it is too simple. And you cannot see it because you have allowed yourself to be blinded by your fears, emotions, feelings and many limiting beliefs. Apart from this you see that majority of the people on the same train are just like you. They believe that thinking is normal and that we cannot stop it. But as I said before, this is not true. You and them want to stop the train by trying to find the solutions somewhere out there. You will try to put the train on side rail track or put something under the wheels so that it slows down and then maybe you would be able to get out. But all of this is dangerous because train may fall out of the rail tracks and you may get injured or even killed.
Let's say that you survive the crash... but sooner or later you will get surprised big time. One day you will notice that you are on another fucking train going even faster than the last one. And what will you do now ? Will you try again to stop the train in the same way as it did last time ? If you lucky enough you will survive. But how many times will you be lucky ? You may hope that god will protect you etc. but is he really protecting you ? How many people believed that god protects them and now they are dead ? I assure you that there are many of them.
I am sure that you have asked yourself the same questions many times: 1. Why are you on this train in the first place and 2. Why is the train going always faster and faster ? I am also certain that you have always looked for the answers outside of yourself. You have looked at people around you and because vast majority of them were like you, you have accepted the belief that we cannot stop thoughts and that we are helpless.
But I am telling you: there is always a solution and the solution is not just out there. The solution is inside of you. If you only stop accepting blindly the complicated philosophies, theories and believes of majority of people and if you look inside of yourself you will be able to find the solution. You would be able to realise that the train is going faster and faster because your thoughts are the fuel for the engine of the train. Yes... that's right. You start with one single thought of worry, fear or jealousy and after some time you will be possessed by a train of thoughts of worry, fear etc. Every time you think about it, you give more energy to it. And every time you give more energy to it, it goes stronger, faster and more frequently.
Now... I am on the same train as you are. But I am not going to try to jump out of train, put the train on the side rail track or throw something under the wheels of the train. This is a game of luck and at the same time - as I said before - it is very dangerous. I have realised already that I am the cause and the source of the problem just like you. I have realised that my thoughts are fuelling the engine of the train (the mind ) and to stop the train, I have to stop my thoughts. Of course I am not alone on the train and I will not be able to stop the train completely by myself. But I will not say: "why should I do it if nobody else is doing it ?". On my behalf I will do as much as I can to stop the train and I know that in the process of doing it I will be able to slow down the train and at the same time I will be able to show others that they are also able to do the same as I do. And eventually we will stop the train completely in a safe way.
And this is the answer to the questions that I have written in the beginning of this article. This commitment of writing daily blogs for 7 years is a process of stopping my thoughts and my participation in the mind. It may seem a very long time but I have already realised that there is no easy way out. I have realised that as a matter of fact this is the only way to stop the train. Thus I will do it. If everybody on the train did the same we would be able to stop it much faster thus I invite you to do the same as I do. If you are still not certain what and how can you participate in it, then I encourage you to read my blogs. Read it aloud because this makes a big difference and if you do it regularly for 21 days then you should be able to see the difference in yourself.
Apart from me there are already other people in the train who have also realized that the solution must come from within and they are already working on stopping the train together with me. You may also read their blogs because this will also assist you in gaining clarity.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot stop thinking.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that thinking is normal.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I exist because I think.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take for granted and without investigating it for myself the saying of Rene Descartes: "I think, therefore I am".
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for the solutions outside of myself without realising that I am the source and the cause of the problems in this world through my participation in thoughts and the mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am helpless in stopping the thoughts.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is impossible to stop the thoughts.